As a reminder…I’m reviewing my faith journal entries from 2017. And rather than end the year with these reflections, I’ve decided to begin the year with them as a promise for what God has to come.
Lord, I haven’t connected with you in a couple weeks and normally I would feel super guilty – but for some reason, I’m feeling mild peace about just being in my current season. Help me process this feeling – it’s not ok to just give up trying to Bible read or prayer (and I don’t think I’ll ever feel ok with not making an effort). But sometimes it’s ok to draw on past Bible knowledge/scripture to do your best in living a current life situation. Help me to not allow that to be my excuse.
Each year, I tend to understand God’s grace a bit more. While the day-to-day living in America judges you based on your performance, that is not how God has designed us to live. It is so difficult to give yourself (and others) a break when what we see day-to-day is focused on what’ve you accomplished and how good you are at it. Shoot, my #1 StrengthsFinder skill is “achiever.” (Talk about having a long way to go to find peace from a grace-filled God.)
A certain Bible verse repeated itself to me in the last few months of 2017.
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14
I pray in 2018 that I will be continually reminded to simply be still in my current season – because that’s how God designed our relationship to be too.