As many of you know, I started this blog to guide me as I journey in choosing to live over completing the to-do list, or at least finding a healthier balance. My ever-supportive husband sent me Our Daily Bread’s daily devotional today, with the following note added to the end of the message:Oh what a good day to be reminded of Martha’s HUGE faith! So many days I feel like I’m not “keeping up” on my end of the bargain in my relationship with God because I struggle to read my Bible and pray. But I believe He will do big things in my life and others. And this played out in my life this week.
Lil O is leaving his current infant-only daycare at the end of May, and we have had our name on waiting lists at three different centers since last fall. But it’s starting to get real close and no centers have called us. So after me leaving (desperate sounding) messages with these centers this week, I started on the in-home search. We visited two places: one that could work (if we’re out of options) and another that we liked – minus the fact O would have to ride in the provider’s van twice a day three times a week to drop her little one off at half-day preschool. Ugh. J and I talked about that option on the front step of our house that night. We knew other families were looking at her in-home and the spots would likely be full very soon. Should we take it, or wait? I wasn’t 100% on-board and told him we needed to wait. I felt better about the centers and that we should wait on God’s timing, not ours. Any which way it goes, He’ll take care of us.
Then I got risky enough to start looking at people who posted open daycare spots on Craigslist. (Hey – it’s not all bad. I found great roommates on there when I was 26, and have purchased several things for the kid. Just meet in a public parking lot, y’all. It’s safe. Pretty much.) But daycare on Craigslist? I know, rough. There’s a fine line between letting God take care of things, and Him placing good options on Craigslist for you to visit. He doesn’t just drop names and phone numbers on your lap from heaven. My dad would be proud to know I’m quoting him, “God helps those who help themselves!” (And something I only half believe in.)
But as I was going to pick up lil man from daycare on Wednesday, I got a call from my #1 child care center pick – a faith-based place. We got in! Starting the beginning of June (cue happy dance in the driveway)! I told the Director that this really was an answer from God as we were waiting on His timing. And she told me how happy that made her because she was dreading making some calls to families that she didn’t have spots for. I felt immediate relief and the presence of God near our family as He took care of our lil O.
Most days I feel like I’m lacking faith, but these big little moments remind me just how present God is and how much I can – and do – trust Him. After reading the devotional J sent me, we had a quick texting exchange:
And I feel proud to be a Martha today.